I went to a family party yesterday and I'm still struggling with letting go. It reminds me of one of the reasons I drank - to bury pain deep down inside. Now that I'm in AA, I have to deal with the raw, painful reminder of why I stopped going around certain individuals in my family. I feel I'm slowly getting better but noticing how sick some of my family seems to me. Especially how some individual perceptions remind me of what I was before coming into AA. I was told there are “NO bad examples.” Speaking of "no bad examples"...My brother graduated from AA many years ago and I'm told he can have an occasional cocktail. I'm still shaking my head and trying to understand. However, I don't think I will ever understand and need to “live and let live.” I've talked to my sponsor but I'm still replaying (over and over)the events of yesterday and why so and so perceived this and that. I know what I'm supposed to do but why won’t I just do it – let go. I'm rambling and will end here. I'm heading to a meeting w/ a friend - Thank God for AA!
Struggling in Ohio
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2 comments:
Sue - I liked your description and am glad you wrote it. Thanks, your friend, Pat
Sue,
Thanks for sharing. I remember how it was for me as well. Jut like you described.
Pam Mcguirk Ohio as well!
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